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Wednesday, March 26, 2008

yummy cereal but its making my jaw tired of chewing. heh. hello! im not at work because i took half day explaining that i have some admissions to handle. which is true.

danica; a person is a person, no matter how small. says:
i was really busy
danica; a person is a person, no matter how small. says:
with lessons
danica; a person is a person, no matter how small. says:
and work
danica; a person is a person, no matter how small. says:
and basil
danica; a person is a person, no matter how small. says:
haha
joyology says:
basil's not an excuse lor.. haha
*mel says:
haha
danica; a person is a person, no matter how small. says:
eh
*mel says:
basil is her burden what
*mel says:
hahahaa
danica; a person is a person, no matter how small. says:
it is LORRRR

haha see totally caught red-handed. poor basil. im so sorry for you!

anyway i was late for work. but anyhow its ok i guess. the only thing i did was to do filing which is boring cause i can fall asleep filing.. then i kept myself awake by thinking of someone to help me write my appraisal. and i decided on dominic lai. yup. but the challenge now is to like locate him in moe headquarters. and to no avail..
anyway auntie jolin called up and wanted me to start tuition her daughter. so yeah. like i got to mainly help her in every subject, particularly English. well i starts next week. hope i will turn out ok.
i went to the amway rally today. wow. they got a newspokes person for nutrilite and nutrilite and espring was featured in readers digest for the best products. cool la. ppl out there! its good. now comes with better deals. for more infor, ask mel!
okok pictures will come soon.. when i actually drag my mum to like bring the camera..

oh ya. on Tuesday i got lots of attention. unnecessary attention. i wore out this dress, a pretty short dress. wore it with a belt and my barbie doll-like shoes(it was light pink! you know that Melissa brand heels). apparently i wore shorts underneath duh. but everyone thought i didnt. of course during lunch time at the coffee shop, i could tell almost every head turning one by one, almost like a symphony, looking at my outrages short dress. damn it i tell you. but really if i show the shorts it will be normal. maybe its the shoes that is getting all the attention. i know.. haha MELISSA has nice shoes. wear them. cool brand haha!
watched step up 2! it was damn cool. the streets are really something man!
all i need to do is pray

mel.
11:09 AM;

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

sometimes i just dont say it out, cause i dont wanna be a brat about it.
but i doesnt mean i wont.
at this moment, emotions are running deep.
but of course, ill change my mentally.
maybe im too sensitive and dont want you to know.
because it sucks.
just let me be happy.
i wasnt intending to feel that way

mel.
1:24 AM;

Thursday, March 20, 2008

ok back from KOREA! YAY! it was awesome. i have yet to upload the photos to show you guys. i will! soon................ haha.

Have quite a lot of work now at work but haha boss left already. i realised that they actually pay for OT, 1.5 more, which is near 10 bucks per hour. But who the hack temp staff would do overtime? and sometimes im like 1 hour late so they will dock off 1 hour's of pay. whao i didnt know it was that strict.. but it will end soon! yes!

ok latest news is Frank from SSC(Singapore Swimming Club) incharged of Temp Staff have quit! haha. And Basu, the Nepal guy, is now incharge haha. and yeah he is scarely weird with all those grossly and irritating smses, which most of the time i have to like try to understand what the hell is he talking about. so yay! easier to get pay and food! haha.

Argh haven apply for uni yet. okok tml tml.

the class(most of them), are at sentosa. i wonder what they did, i mean the weather issit very good

ok go first


then i met the rest of the class and surprisingly most of them were from our class haha. we had marche and it totally sucked. the food wasnt good, the portion was pathetic.. yeah just dont go there again. janice finally came to one of our outings. she straightened her hair. yeah. still the same old her. yeapp. oh and ms phua came too. she was rather late. but it beats not coming at all. i was called a photo-bitch(i think she said that) by ms phua haha. eh.. just having some fun la. so no more cam-whore, its photo bitch!

ok then i had to rush off to clarke quay. plan was to club but. yeah didnt cause my dear old friend was still suffering from a hangover last night. and i didnt want to be mean. and anyway mum. so i had to tell shu not to come. anyway theresa kept wanting to vomit. and vomit.. we sat at starbucks we awhile. i had my fav cafe mocha. she finally vomitted. luckily in the toilet. head over to her house. basically to sleep. but what a night. i realised how much i have to help her. we had to help her. if we didnt she would turn to her 'other friends' which was too wild. with such problems of hers, even i had difficulty comforting her and advicing her. think we need another sleep over with four of us..

AHHH! i wanna go sentosa! everyone was red yesterday and awesome! today the sun is blazing but a damn nice day to swim and tan! damn that period...

hurry! 6 more days before i can stop work! YES!

its tiring sometimes


mel.
5:26 PM;

Saturday, March 08, 2008

skip it. you and i know what we got.
korea people! see ya next week!
life creeps by

mel.
1:36 AM;

Thursday, March 06, 2008

i was 40 mins late today. well. eileen(colleague) too. haha. come on it was raining and all so nice to sleep in. plus i baked till like 1am. yay! cookies for everyone babes.

PLEASE PROCEED TO MEL FOR YOUR COOKIES DARLINGS!
danica was super sick yesterday that i was pretty scare for her. and she is really one stubborn ladie man. only think of dying and letting basil to carry her away. haha retarded right?
tonight im going to have my "last supper" with my buddies. damn.
enticed
that, always so alluring
i gaze upon it dreaming
lust at those lushes lips
check out those perfect dips
praying for a spark to lit
infatuation turns to desperation
i'm getting impatient
when will you say yes to me
racing as it draws near
thy soul is filled with fear
daggered me with blood shot teardrops
clueless as he overpowers me with greed and money
innocent and guilible
he wimpers upon guilt and sorrow
weary and torned, he stumbled
'let me die' he pled
dont ask me why i wrote this and please do not try to think or imagine any longer. its just random really haha. its quite fun. not that im making any sense haha.
anyway everyone is rambling about results. i dunno what to think or do. my brain is clogged up. there is nothing i can do now anyway. only to drown myself.
( after a few hours)
OMG danica that is the most funny thing. we played the VIWAWA majong and we met his irritating guy called chris ong. according to him he is singaporean from SIM has a girlfriend. for me.... im a 22 year old half nepal, actually a rojak of everything, grandpa is a aussie.. have a husband from SIM, a bf from singapore. HAHA omg. danica couldnt stop laughing also. she tried to test me of my heritage can haha. idiot. i was almost tougue-tied! asked for my msn and i said. DANICACHOO@. and HE added her HAHAHAHAHAHA! funny man. what cheap thrill.
YES 1 more hour to makan.. DAMN.. nearing D-Day..
life works in a curious way

mel.
10:05 AM;

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

not you, not anyone
asshole,bastard,bitch,idiot,stupid,hateful(vocab stops here).
they knew it. that man did it.
but what could they do. what could anyone do.
how could he... how could he ever.
he has commited a sin, a crime.
he could have been jailed away from them, his family.
they do not agree with him and will never.
they will not let his habits get in their way.
they do not like him.
not that they hate him.
actually they dont know...
he has destroyed the perfect picture.
all they know is that he will not be a great impact in their life.
fuck all those love, dont want you back.

im not sure about the title but haha. just felt like writing it. its called the emo mornings you have sometimes. you know, its how you have to drag yourself out of bed and all.

had my hair cut yesterday haha. oh well. at least a professional one. nothing to do. see how long would it take for boss to ask me to do stuff again.
who knew~


mel.
9:11 AM;

Monday, March 03, 2008

it was like a gong being banged at my face. results would be this friday, 7th of March.
i actually dont feel like seeing any of you, sorry.

mel.
5:52 PM;


just went to the loo. good no blood. unlike yesterday. it has been maybe more then a month and not fully healed yet. maybe i should buy the alcohol spray to allow it to heal better.

lame. no one is online and im getting rather bored. have to continue to do the org chart for boss again. i shall just think of what to have for lunch later.

oh ya. yesterday baking that badge of cookies didnt turn out as nice as before. didnt type of oven i guess. instead of mimicking subway cookies, it sure be famous amos cookies. its still nice though. our chat didnt go no where. maybe because i didnt bring the career guide book. we were suppose to help each other with what course to take. anyway pei yu messaged just now and comfirmed that results would be released on the 7th march, if not anytime this week. it was published on the morning programme, good morning singapore. oh man. shit. im trying to re-run what is going to happen on that very day. just to prepare myself.

the phone keeps ringing on off the hook. but i cant be bothered to answer it cause its not my phone. finally the stupid printing pay-slips machine has stopped. the noise was unbearable. its cold, very cold. so are the people. most i guess. all i want now is to sit on my couch and watch anything, nice programmes i expect. finally, an msn alert! a friendly call. melissa my buddy-clone has come to my rescue. but i was totally interrupted by the IT incharged. argh.
(3 hours later)
disrupted again. had lunch with eileen and annie. they talked about the office policies while i just eat my fishball noodles and agree profusingly. from there i knew i didnt want to be stuck in a office. there also mentioned that boss was a little bias towards me. yeah. can sort of feel that. but they were analysing that maybe i just remain her of her niece or something who was about my age. anyway i almost forgot, wanted to show you guys what mel wrote. not me la.

Eternity
You look at me with eyes of the sky
Your smile like the sleepy sunrise
Your blush aurora tints your cheeks
Your gentle hand warm and alive
We clasp hands together firm
Finger to finger bone to bone
Our heartbeats fluttering like angel’s wings
Our smiles doing a silent prayer
Our light breaths tickling each other’s lips
Our skin tingling at the familiar feel
And I pray that time could then stay still
While I lose myself in your loving eyes
Where you would bring me from reality
Moving together towards eternity

touching? told her i loved it a lot. but those of you who reads it, please comment and critisize if any.

anyway jovi's lip piercing(his friend did it for him.. i wanted but no. haha) is going well although his mum actually found out haha. and he wants to pierce the top part of his ear. i too feel like piercing. found a spot to try out.
looking at the NAFA courses, its super interesting. but it will be like wasting 2 years in sr... all the courses sound fun but can it last and would it be my career?
damn this sucks.



mel.
10:34 AM;

Sunday, March 02, 2008

sunday! a day to bake and i miss it. mum says that i spend too much money on it. ya its quite ex to bake really, esp those cakes but its too good not to bake=D
who wants facial?
had my amway facial lesson 1 today. its just like getting a facial because they have hands on period where you actually apply it on your own face. so girls out there who wants a facial?! mel can help! hey but its not only girls that attended, there were men too. and they looked very funny with the facial masque on! haha. they also had face analysis, so my face was a combination of oily and dry skin. one of the beauty consultant said that if i dont start to take care, lines may even start to appear as years go by. shocked inside but i still smile ha.ha. OMG la.. they also mentioned that in the twenties we would have the most beautiful skin. from there you girls would know..... that is why PLEASE START TAKING CARE! skin products for oily skin, dry skin, sensitive skin, and even anti-aging is available so come to me k! heh...=D
oh and i didnt have dinner with my mum instead her friend, lillian, which i got to know. she is really the auntie type that can talk a lot. but im cool with her. she talks about her son, niece, sister, bla.. about their studies. wow and they are hell hardworking. her son went to ITE but still presses on, now having extra lessons at night besides his navy job.
and about the korea trip, i heard that it would super cold there! like -7 degree so i got to start looking for suitable clothes! anyone want to lend me?! haha so many things to get and too little time!
so well i stayed on for the Amway talk thingy and yes i attend every sat, or even wednesday if i can, and my bladder almost burst! haha. it was not until i run out seeing a girl sleeping outside the place. like wth sitting on the floor and resting her head on the chair. i ignored it first to relieve myself. to my damn surprise that girl on the floor was my niece, Millie! haha. so i joined her, on the floor, instead of going back in. we chatted and walked to plaza singapura to get a drink and like chat. on the way there i saw SHUTING! haha i could just recognise her from afar haha. anyway about millie, she was super funny. she couldnt find cathy and took a cab from plaza singapura!!! hahahah... okok forgive her, she is from the states.
TO MILLIE: i hope you do well and dont get too affected my your school's environment(if there are many things too disturbing for you haha, you know like we have talked just now). cause you must stay in Singapore to finish your studies ya! love you!
and ya ill upload some photos asap because now i depend on my mum.. my phone sucks remember.. it only stores like 6 photos then tells me memory card is full. argh.
i had to ask dad for my 3 weeks pocket money. im out of it! god i shouldnt be asking i know.. okok i promise to give them 150 each when my next pay come in. but i do want to take money away from my dad but of course it would be good if i save it. so like take and save then ill be helping him. actually... i haven given them any money since day 1 and i hear every child did. bad right.. and and marcus pocket money has risen to 60 too! wth right. so much... he better use it wisely!
oh and william sorry i cant make it haha hope you got someone to help you out. but please remember your treat to me! that would be treating me anything i want eat and drink and it must be high-class. you said so yourself.. haha
ah! joy is flying off tml! buy us stuff from HK k! love you muacks haha!
still, agony

mel.
2:05 AM;