Wednesday, October 22, 2008
to theresa: i accept your apology and im sorry too. i know that your so far away and there are many things i cant be there literally for you. and i dont understand how you feel sometimes. yeah.. i know you know how i feel about it when you mention j. i know you tried. and your still trying. just that i feel that part of you still cant let go. and i dont know why. its hard, yes, but its time to move on. it wont be easy. to think about it, those fucked up stuff only happened months ago. it feels long, but not long enough for you to heal. i didnt go through what you went through so i didnt understand. sorry. but i just dont want you to get hurt further. sinking deeper.. so shity. happy times will come k. dont worry. and ill be there to listen. you know i will =)
today was kinda boring. feels weird... dunno. anyway. i had to wait damn freaking long for friends. damn sian.. then finallllly!.. ate at hong kong cafe. bitched about. then to get lizard's present. lizard rented a car and sent as back. my god. she was being damn cautious while driving, i mean, to think she crashed before. dangerous la. plus she hit the curb just now on the way to my place. hahaha.. scary la she.
daryl bought chicken franks and headed home.
i feel like going for a joy ride.. wheee!.. top down, wind blowing into ya face.. so relaxed.
maybe cause i suddenly looked at the date and realised its already like what.. 22nd.. results coming out soon. i got paranoid last night that i actually dreamt that i got a 5.5 which is like super not good enough.. these dreams are seriously bad signs.. shity shit shit.
I FEEL AWKWARD!
EEEEE! DAMNIT
mel.
12:54 AM;
